The Right Boob Disparity Conundrum Part II

Sooooo, my right boob disparity is still a conundrum. All my tests were normal. This is a good thing, of course. It’s an excellent thing, as a matter of fact. But no one can explain the sudden one-sided growth spurt. I’m just going to add it to the list of other body oddities unique to me and go with it.  I’m grateful for sure, but there is still something bothering me.

Yesterday, my primary doctor’s office called, and the nurse told me that Doc wants me to see a specialist just to be safe. I honestly feel like he is being extremely thorough and every bit the good doctor, but I had to tell the nurse I wasn’t going to see a specialist. I had to tell her that the mammogram and ultrasound ate almost all of my flex funds for this year, and I can’t afford to see a specialist at the moment.

I honestly don’t feel that seeing the specialist is necessary right now; the radiologist at the imaging center and both the techs assured me everything looks perfectly normal. I don’t feel anything different, no lumps or anything, there never was anything like that. It’s just…growing. But evenly, so there’s that! YAY!

Anyway, admitting to the nurse I couldn’t afford care was a bit humiliating. I work for a Fortune 500 company that offers some of the best benefits in America. I make good money for what I do, and have Cigna health insurance. Yes, I have debt which I’m paying off, but the out-of-pocket costs for my tests this week were over a grand. Even without any debt, paying that in one lump sum would be less than fun for most people.

I confess that I don’t know much about how healthcare or health insurance works in this country.  I just know I felt shitty having to say no to my doctor trying to help me. All I can do is think positive, be vigilant about watching for changes, and keep trusting my gut.

Also, if you have any good falsie suggestions, I’m all ears. I need to even out the disparity! ❤

2 thoughts on “The Right Boob Disparity Conundrum Part II

  1. Oh hi. I’m right here. Stalking you.

    Firstly, YAY for a healthy boob!

    Seriously, please, please don’t feel shitty about having to turn down care because of cost. I say that to you as someone who works in a hospital that I can’t afford to be treated in. Health care costs are crazy, and pretty much every single person I know has to make hard decisions all the time about what they can and can’t afford.

    You were proactive about your health, and armed with knowledge and the opinion of several professionals, you’re opting out of something that you think is being recommended out of an abundance of caution. Trust me–you probably weren’t even the first person today who told that nurse “I can’t afford that.”

    And six months from now if you change your mind about it, call the specialist and tell them “I need this treatment, but I don’t think I can afford it.” They’ll work with you. All of the doctors I know got into the field because they want to help people, and their offices are very good at finding solutions to problems like this. My sister paid off a hand surgery in $20/month increments.

    No recs on falsies from me, but if you can find a doctor who wants to do a transplant, lefty is bigger than righty, so I’ve got plenty to spare. =)

  2. I’m so glad that you’re okay, even if lopsided. Maybe it’s late puberty (you know, at 36) and leftie plans to catch up soon?

    I know little about healthcare (Anne obviously knows way more than I do) but I think it’s crazy that we live in a country where you work at a Fortune 500 country and we are supposed such a “rich” country… and yet here we are with these issues.

    Hugs and kisses to your boobs. And you!

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